Invade my privacy. Purple: 10 facts about my room. Blue: 9 facts about my family. Green: 8 facts about my body. Yellow: 7 facts about my childhood. Orange: 6 facts about my home town. Red: 5 facts about my best friend. Pink: 4 facts about my parents. White: 3 facts about my personality. Grey: 2 facts about my favorite things. Black: 1 fact about the person I like.
i’ve decided to be a victim no longer. no more feeling sorry for myself, weeping around the house and tearing my hear out in despair. that’s for girls who have the luxury of already being perfect, nobody feels sorry for the ugly girl who misses out.
i’ve decided that i actually have no interest in any kind of a romantic relationship besides one where i’m getting exactly what i want out of it. i’m more than happy to be anybody’s friend but dating is a drag.
bearing that in mind, i’m no longer interested in getting emotionally attached to anyone with the hopes of one day somehow ending up dating them. i’m going to be as emotionally unavailable and aloof as possible, because if you don’t want me i don’t want you either. anything else hurts too much.
no more fucking about binging and feeling bad and eating more, nobody ever got hot without putting in significant time and money. just wait it out man, chill and stop wanting the easy instant fix.
in the next few weeks i’m dying my hair again, piercing my ears more and getting my navel pierced.
i’m saving half of my pay every week so i can get out of here, the other half i will allow myself to spend half of and the other half will be for ‘life expenses’
try and stop week night drinking. but don’t try too hard for now it’s not a major concern.